Draw near

A few months ago I prayed for God to help me see the things I needed to purge from my life so that I could see Him and His plans clearer instead.

I also wrote in a journal last month that I wanted to draw near to Him. To my Savior. To The Holy Spirit.

Since then my phone screen has shattered, we have canceled our cable and our air conditioning stopped working.

Not staring at a cellphone 24/7 and the sound of silence?

Of course we could just throw money we really don’t have at all three of those situations and rectify them all but…

He’s answered my prayer if I choose to see it that way.

And left me the option of taking this season to be able to draw near to Him in this space of silence.

Of letting Him choose what I can hear and see.

Over the last 6 months I have purged so many bad habits out of my life and started filling myself with things that are probably considered simple, but connect me to the Trinity in a more personal, soul overwhelming way.

It hasn’t been easy.

I have questioned a million things.

About myself. My faith. My life.

About this road I’m traveling, the story being written, the song always being sung.

Some days I’m laying down my cross gently.

Other days I’m dragging it.

But most days I’m at the foot of His cross in tears.

Thinking. Begging. Crying. Repenting. Praying. Worshipping. Serving. Thanking. Remembering. Cleansing.

Drawing near.

There’s so many more bad habits to purge.

And I hope so much more greatness and connection with Him over the horizon.

If you are on a journey also friends hold on tight with me.

I can’t wait to see what He’s got waiting on the other side.